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i'm sad

2010-09-02T11:50:00.000-07:00

suddenly, i feel that i dun love my bf anymore.
its more of a habit and used to having him around.
maybe i only treat him as someone who love me and spend time with me.
but i am not willing to sacrifice and love him back the same as i did b4.

but after we talked on the phone just now, i felt sad all of a sudden.
maybe because i know that i dun wanna be with him for some reasons,
but also can't bear to give up as we had many happy moments and memories.
my tears just gush out of my eyes and i couldn't control myself.

he said; maybe our time is almost up and our fate is near.
maybe my love for him has died, or it's still living in the past.
but i also feel that i care too much abt his flaws, his look etc..

once again, i feel the same way, the same situation i have faced past previous r/ships.
i hate this!

maybe i should not have any r/ship at all.
maybe its because i dun wanna commit.
maybe the problem is me!
just me....

new yr 2010!

2010-01-04T07:44:00.000-08:00

hi all.. happy new yr...

i'm still doing my attachment at parkroyal hotel.. another 3 mths to go til 19th march..
yeah!! finishing soon..

hope everything will be better for me n my family this yr!!

cheers everyone!:)

new life.. new bf..

2009-12-12T11:15:00.000-08:00

now having my internship with parkroyal hotel..
got over my past.. got new bf..
very dote me.. learnt alot with him..
thou sometimes quarrel over small things n get really fed up..
we also got over it.. brought us closer.. now i think he should understand me more.. i also explained that we should not be too controlled over each other..
hmm.. anyway.. every couple got their own things to quarrel??
so if can get over, it'll be gd..
anyway i love him alot now tt's all it matters!!=)

still thinking of him..

2009-11-01T08:26:00.000-08:00

lately.. kept thinking bout him.. esp when i listen to my songs..
i wonder how he is living now.. if its been a better one or worse.
hope its for e better bah..

just now after work came back so tired wanted to slp but once i hear e songs.. i think of him again n picture us as the songs played with e lyrics running thru my head.

well.. sudd had a rush of missing him so much that i cried uncontrollably. i dunno how long i'm going to be like this.. i miss him..

i miss those times we were happy playing n teasing each other n the times when i'm angry n he would just keep quiet n say sorry n still be with me by my side.

he was a gd companion n playmate besides his other weak points.. :(

i cant continue anymore...

missing euu..

2009-10-22T09:50:00.000-07:00

ended work today.. went to his house to get back some things..
while onboard e bus, passed by many places we used to go often..
memories came flooded back... keep playing n flashing thru my head.. cant seem to stop... sudd felt i wanted to cry.. but i controlled... n controlled.. at last.. tear rolled down my cheeks.

sudd all feelings came back.. wondering if it was e feeling of excitedness n eagerness to c u or cant give up yet n still love u some whr deep deep down in my heart..
...maybe both..

at last got down e bus.. thr u were...
1st thing was to c our baby xin xin...

when we walked down e slope, surroundings looks familiar but felt strange...
walked past e pool, recalled back when we used to swim in thr... playing n having fun...
nv expected for u to send me off.. but u did..
maybe tt's u.. one thing which remains e same..

n after tt noticed u lost weight.. wanted to hug u but had a feeling of smth refraining me from doing so.. maybe i felt guilty for putting u thru all these torture... i know u wanted to be with me but u just didnt/ cant bring urself to make me stay or hug me. me too, was longing for a hug...
miss ur smell.. ur hug... those happy times..

bus came, u said bye n went off hurriedly...
after boarding e bus, looked thru e window.. saw ur back... missed it.. hoping u would turn n c ur face again... but nv...

thts ran wild in my head n everything started playing back again...
2nd time, tears rolled down again..
*pain in me*

til now.... .... ....

its over...

2009-10-14T03:50:00.000-07:00

our love ended on 29th sept 2009.

its been 1 yr 1 mth for us since 29th aug 2008.

sorry i cant tk it much longer n have to end it...

hope u'll go on with ur life in a better way w/out me by ur side. dun wish to c u throw urself to despair.. dun drown urself with alcohol n cigarretes.. stay healthy tk care of ur health..

sorry to hurt u once again n thanks for everything throughout this 1 yr 1 mth.

i miss u....

finally back blogging.....

2009-09-06T22:41:00.000-07:00

alright... hv been sooooo busy with work last 2 wks...
wanna chiong til my attachment, earn as much as i can..
if not attachment only$500 per mth.. somemore full time de..

cut my hair look so ugly.. regret cutting... miss my hair when just rebond. couldnt slp for e 1st night keep thinking of my hair.. next day ask dad help me trim abit of my fringe cos e person cut unbalance..
oh no..... my lovely hair now gone.... sadx........
now only wait for it grow long wont cut liao..

here e pics for my mlys trip last mth!!

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bak gut teh after some rest at e hotel..
(durian time...)

went to an italian restaurant for dinner.. best dining experience so far!

chop chop e piglet..

break e plate for gd luck!! (wish for love or wealth)

both of us made e same choice- LOVE!

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(last day of photo- taking)

at sky bar in our hotel..

last moment in our room.. (tis pic dun look like us at all!!)

(waiting to check out)

(going back lo..)

1 yr anniversary on 29th aug 09!

2009-09-02T00:09:00.000-07:00

lazy to blog nowadays....

2009-08-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

got a new hp LG KU990R baby pink!!

went all e eway to ps just to get tt colour...

one wk since i joined new york new york.. getting settled thr.. made a few friends.. feel like my working life is fuller now..more things to learn n quite busy so can learn how to cope with it n improve my service!

ok tt's all... lazy liao..

found a new job!!!

2009-08-15T12:50:00.000-07:00

shall be starting work on tue at nyny!

straight interview can get le.. cos got experience plus e course i'm taking.. it's also at jp.. so near my house.. better!! yeah!! was worried after tmr den dunno must wait til when den got interview.. now all settled!

after work, dear n mum n javin came.. we went for a bite at swensens.. mum got pay le.. so long nv eat together.. nice.

den went to buy movie tix for 'scared to laugh, laugh til scared'

went home shower meet dear's friends at clementi drink abit den went jp for movie at 11 45pm. wait for javin to come as my mum send him back much later..

rating for e show=9/10
very hilarious lah.. but got a few scenes with e sudden appearance n loud sounds scared me man.. haha...

waited for nr5 go back home.. cos of my bro if not no need waste money can walk home de.. sian.. 3 ppl tk bus end up more den cab lor.. but i didnt wanna spend money le n dear also not enough le den bo bian..

sian... havent get pay na bei.. bo lui ah!!!

bored BORED bored!!!

2009-08-12T22:35:00.000-07:00

life so boring man..

now in sch using com... end class le but have to meet e rest for tmr project.. final yr event.. ben lai must stay til late de but i'm working so cant..

sian man.. e past few days have been late.. just so tired n lazy for sch la..

going to quit my job soon..

cos sales bad den no staff meal.. called e manager he said p.t ppl work less den 6 hrs no staff meal anyway.. na bei!
fig n olive don't have e welfare of e staff man fucking hell..

still say if business start to pick up den all will hv staff meal again.. wonder if e boss know wad is doing business anot.. business sure got up n down times wad.. den when its good, wad we get?? eat same thing also nth special when we hit target.. n now one day of bad sales den ppl no need eat la! like tt who wanna slog out for them sia.. ridiculous shit!

might be going to swensens or new york! to work..

back from kl trip!!

2009-08-10T06:43:00.000-07:00

sad 3d2n so fast end..

was expecting a big jam at customs towards sg but ok leh all went smooth.. quite tired after nap in e car..

went back home(miss home!!).. dear with me den he help me bring out bed,changed bedsheet n vaccuum+mop floor.. THANKS DEAR DEAR LOVE U SOOO MUCH!!

after which, went down kpt with javin n hv fish head steamboat... so shiok! miss soup!! go kl didnt hv much nice food except for e restaurant which we had a enjoyable dining experience will update more on these!!! oh ya n upload e pics in a few days perhaps!

going to rest early today! gd night!!!

skipped sch today!

2009-08-05T22:52:00.000-07:00

well didnt do it on purpose this time... really felt like nv slp for 3 days damn tired man.. anyway woke up bout 12 plus.. wah! nice slp man..

now blogging n packing my luggage for KL trip. going with dear n his family on sat morning so will be staying over on fri night after work.. hehe so excited its been so long nv go overseas le.. last was last yr june went with clastalia to genting.

but this time i go use my own money to change to ringgit cos e other time i used up all e ringgits at home.. but i also dun hv money must wait til pay come on 15th so borrow $50 1st.. wonder how n wad i can do with this small amt.. sian.. but lucky with his parents going so no need worry bout hotel.. meal wise.. i think will be eating with them too.. so only spend on stuff tt i wanna buy..

but thanks uncle n auntie!=)

family situation getting worse now... sian..

getting sick!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-03T06:59:00.000-07:00

argh ever since tt few late nights didnt feel well as usual.. cough getting worse.. dunno wad to do man.. si bei tired today.. ytd worked evening shift den slp late n woke up late for sch so tired felt like not going.. but cant must drag myself out of bed.. argh sian.... went dear's house after sch... now just had a rest going to go home soon.. tmr going sch at 9 am again... boring!

LOVIN' MY REBONDED HAIR SINCE 25TH JULY!

ladies night e past 2 days!

2009-07-30T13:23:00.000-07:00

just came back from double o..
sian.. 1st time go thr 2 plus ssb n cnb all come spot check spoil mood..

anyway didnt like tt place much.. prefer power house.. thr e aircon like spoil man so hot like in sauna.. pay money go thr sweat.. plus no free drink even for guys who paid entrance fee.. wth..

power house ladies night got free 5 drinks for ladies.. de guys only pay 20 got 4 drinks.. but O guys pay 30 not even a drink.. thr many malay ppl.. dun suit me..

anyway, was planning to go as i was informed tmr no sch! yeah 2 days no sch all go ladies night.. but gotta stop le.. cos i know dear unhappy le.. den after work, went home.. ben lai wanna meet xin jie go together de but she tmr work morning.. was so desperate man.. nan de got this chance to go O's ladies night but no kakee.. hai sian..

den martin msg me on msn.. he also just finish work den ask wanna meet up den i told him bout my plans.. ok den he pei me go but he didnt wanna go tt kinda place.. cos he cant drink as he riding.. n he also dun like tt kinda place much..
so i make up den took last bus to b.merah meet him n he fetch me from thr..
after leaving O, went newton for prawn noodle. very nice! 2nd time we ate.. e previous time went with dear n him but too late close le.. now just updating posts for past 2 days!

going home lo!!!
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late update for 29th july..

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okies.. after sch went home rest awhile den make up n dress for ladies night.. gg power house with min.. but went orchard look for dear 1st.. he with his classmates play billard den do revision.. these 2 pics were taken when they do revision.. i was so bored............

after which went to his house for dinner.. took photos.. sudd so got e mood for photos.. took so many but managed to upload some nia.. can view e full pics in my facebook/ friendster.. here upload pics so mafan... only 5 at a time..

den took bus to min's house as she just end work n i know she sure tk very long to prepare n i dun wanna wait for her thr alone if not i will kisiao.. hate waiting for ppl..

reach her house 10 plus but left at 12 plus.. argh!! tk so long to make up.. even watched finish 11pm drama.. sian.. but her house 2 dogs funny la..

den when reach thr, met up with dar's uncle n his friend.. as they asked if wanna join them.. den when gg home, as usual tt uncle's friend did e same thing..

at 1st say wad share cab half half ok den end up reach wc just get down n refuse to pay n walk off fucking hell wad kinda man no lanjiao! sia suay.. still always boast ard ask ppl know who is he la.. wad he's chen feiyu la wad join star search same batch as christoper lee..

pui!nv even win or become famous n get award wanna action.. n i dun like him very sticky when clubbing.. always wanna dance so close.. tell him off n push him away still come back.. not croweded also e same.. na bei si bei du lan.. not only me.. both min n xin jie also dun like him..

but my mood was spoiled by tt time.. it got worse when dear's uncle come n mix my drinks~!!!ARGH! hate it!! knn... mix beer to my burban.. nvm.. put one side den na bei pour e mixed burban back to e beer FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! si bei du lan jit tao black face liao..

now onwards, i wont wanna join them or them to join me anymore! got once,got twice no 3rd time!damn it..

boring.........

2009-07-28T06:48:00.000-07:00

today late for sch as usual.. ended early cos no lessons..
went his house wait for him..
slp awhile den come to my house change n he dye hair..
den we went jp watch movie.. 'fighting'
not nice de so boring.. now at home just finish eat n watching 9pm show.. bored....
bored!!!!

rebonded hair!!

2009-07-26T00:38:00.000-07:00

finally rebond my hair!!

went my mum's friend salon after work..

cut hair n rebond til bout 7 plus den went to find dear at his house..he complain very bored while waiting for me.. but not even 3 hrs lor..

too bad rebond is take very long de.
after which we changed to our couple tshirt n head down to t.jurong to e new club 'sun city' to meet my bro n his friends.

its a thai disco plus ktv. 1st go thr abit sian cos live band boring.. but thr got many thai girls some quite pretty n cute.. after tt finally dancing session! e music mostly anyhow de abit like trance den only got 1 rnb song throughout.. den towards e end got a few techno songs.. old sch de but i like.. new techno nowadays all anyhow remix de not nice..

den saw my aunty n my mum came bout 2 plus.. she went over to another side ktv.. after sun city,(close at 3) we went to find her n went for supper at a nearby kpt..

after tt went home.. so tired! wake up since 9 30 in e morning! here's e pics!

oh ya dear's friend came to join us + me n my bro

these r my bro's friends with e girls...

except this 2 r a couple!

cooking mood!

2009-07-22T02:18:00.000-07:00

yo yo i'm in a cooking mood today.. shall be preparing dinner.. in factalrdy prepare half way le..
hmm.. long time nv eat at home liao.. thr will be egg, soup, veg n chicken wings! simple right but its very satisfying liao.. anything cook at home i sure eat alot.. now waiting for tt dumb dumb come over my house.. stupid say wan meet me early den end up go town with friends still say will b4 6pm come. so long man.. walk walk very important meh.. hardly i no need to work n can cook n stay at home now dun wan spend time with me.. herh! angry u ah!!!!
hao ba end here.. going to prepare n start cooking le.. cya!

2009-07-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

hi everyone.. hmm.. ytd night my mum bunk in with me..
i slp until i kick or hit her in e middle of e night..
SORRY!!
woke up in e morning for work..
after work went dear's house.. cos gg to his ah ma house dinner den send his bro go airport..
today his aunty cook steamboat.. wa.. so full man..
ben lai wanted to go watch ice age 3 3d de.. but no seat n no showtime le.. sian..
now at his house.. dunno its eat too much or wad.. stomachache man.. went toilet 3 times le.. oh gosh.. ''i wan nobody, nobody but u!'' haha he just switch on e songs..''lalalala''
now he sudd say wan go holland drink.. just now no place go dunno y sudd change..
k la.. end here.. quite tired actually but feel like going out.. sian.. bday ang bao money no more le..

family prob again!!!

2009-07-17T00:48:00.000-07:00

they wanna divorce again..
looks serious..
just msg mum she say at court.. dunno wan come back slp with me or move out..
sian.. many times liao.. hai..

anyway might be meeting her later..

oh ya for my bday, thanks alot to min who helped me pack n clean up.. she dun let me wash e dishes too! felt so bad.. she say nvm cos i bday gal den i say she's guest den she say aiya know so well le its ok.. haha..

alright gotta prepare!!!

so addicted to ladies night now!

19 yr n 1 day old!

2009-07-16T01:44:00.000-07:00

1st, ytd after sch went clementi buy concession den go ntuc buy food for steamboat. met dear at thr n took bus back to my house. went home bathe n prepare all e way.. asked dear help me a little as time was running out.. den he went down bought a bottle of beer n we shared. wooh! shiok man so relax..
was disappointed as some of my friends nv turn up. esp someone close to me. msg also nv reply. anthony came..

ben lai i also tht gerald not coming cos he say coming over at 7 plus til 10 plus den come. but he came. dear's uncle also came.. by tt time we were having cake fight!!!!

ARGH!!!! i kena smash 4 times.. thanks to dear who started it.. still gang up with min n javin.
2 times him, once was owen n min used e durian cake to do facial on me argh!!!!

after tt my parents came back we were alrdy cleaning up wa lao floor all so oily.. mop 3 times man.

irene n anna came..

den we all shower n prepare to go ladies night at power house.

had a bit of unhappiness between me n dear. cos i was mostly with min n xin jie dancing.. nv entertain him n anthony.. n plus he cant go in fly cos after power house we went with e uncle n his friend.. den he tk cab home..

but he call just now n we had a tiff as we had diff perspective.

any way will be uploading some photos later on now gotta rush for work again!

things i received:

-3 ang bao (mummy, min, n irene+anna)

-soft toy for hp (owen)

-clinic couple shirt (anthony)

-bday cake (dear dear)

-body mist/perfume (xin jie)

-scented candles (gerald)

thanks everyone for making my bday a fun + worse cake smash one!

tired!shag!

2009-07-14T01:09:00.000-07:00

skipped sch today cos too tired press off alarm n went back to slp end up dear called bout 9 30am den push me go sch.. si bei sian.. prepared for sch den msg my classmate he say end sch le wah heng ah if not tk bus thr like kuku..

went back to slp..

dear called me after he's done with his lasering thing n he went to sch for test den fren send him back.. so gd man..

by e time i cant continue my slp le.. kena disturb n wake up many times..

woke up brush teeth use com play facebook farm town.. wah like addictd man..
went out of room looked for food to eat..
eat liao continue play...

sian later goin work.. 6 30pm..
tmr must wake up early.. lesson start at 8am! every wed i also miss e 1st 2 lessons de..
si bei sian wanna wake up early..

hmm.. ppl whom i invited n would most likely come would be..
-gerald
-clastalia
-lee woon
-shing min
-xin jie
-anna
-irene
-my bf! confirm come de if not he not my bf liao..

hehe... will be a busy day for me!
have plans after steamboat to go fly with minmin for ladies night..
n pon sch e next day n tk mc.. heh heh...

okies.. end here..
HAPPY BDAY TO ME!

tired n headache!

2009-07-12T01:48:00.000-07:00

now at dear house.. fri went bq with him for a drink, went back by midnight bus, n i reached home bout 5 plus. slept bout 6plus den woke up sat 2pm.
used com n get ready for work.
after work went wcrc play billiard den walk to clementi police hq thr tk cab cos not enough money le. damn no mood to play lor all e way lose n dear win me $12. but credit 1st hehe..
slp at his house til bout 6 went to tk bus home.. damn shag.. reached home bout 7 plus but cant slp well.. alright.. update some other time.. sian.

finally back blogging!

2009-07-10T02:15:00.000-07:00

hi i'm back! due to some internet prob last few log ins gave up on blogging n switched to diary.. oh yeah bday coming lo... 19 this yr.. many things i wshed n hope for..

big big ang bao
1st branded wallet/bag
1st laptop
new hp
1st digital camera
new clothes
cosmetic n skin care
new pair of couple ring for me n my guy

wish to have gd health n lots of wealth for me n my loved ones
better future for my family n my r/ship
able to achieve my dream of becoming air stewardess

hmm... tt's all... will be updating next few days.....

oh ya.. changed job liao.. from bubble tea to snack bar at wcrc n now back to jp now in FIG N OLIVE. getting settled in thr.. hope this will be e last job til my attachment in oct. alright gotta go!!!cya!just some recent pics:

2009-06-08T07:17:00.001-07:00

argh~!!!!!!!!!!! stupid internet!!! typed my blog for today liao wanna upload pics den not responding n all gone!!!
forget it.. here r e things i did today..

overslp for trial interview in sch

tk cab n make up inside cab

went home dyed my hair

dear came over

rushed for work forgetting my friend switch days with me..

went back dear dyed his hair again

went to his house gg back soon

here's e pics!!!!!

new hair colour!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-08T06:57:00.000-07:00

woOo hOo!!

today overslp for trial interview in sch.. lucky dear keep calling den woke up from e vibration of hp.. sian den go wash up n chuck all my things in bag den chiong go down tk cab.. inside cab its whr i started my make up.. bo bian interview standard mah.. reached sch tht was late but saw my friend sitting thr also waiting for lecture, who was not thr yet.. saw him walk go canteen n went up think purposely make us wait de man..

den he came n i was 1st =) nervous but confident sure pass de n it really did! one of e qns was 'whr u c urself in 5 yrs time?' n i said 'being an air stewardess'.. its my dream/goal.. get to travel n work e stuff tt interest me.. hehe=)

den he said he'll look out for any job vacancy in e airline industry wooh thanks man!!

after tt, went home by bus.. (sian) no money le this mth..

dear ended sch n wanted to come over my place..

reached home, started to dye my hair when dear just came.. havent eaten den dear cooked maggie mee for us just nice i finish do my hair.. after eat den bathe washed my hair 3 times cos very hi- bleach den like very dry n clumpy.. dry my hair n wooh hhhooo........ golden monkey!!!!!! wakakaka............

faster changed n get ready for work went down e lift n sudd my friend called n remind me tt she changed time with me.. wah... heng ah. went up.. now dear turn to dye hair.. e's was e 2nd time le cos he said not ''kim'' enough..

i went inside rm n tk photos of my new hair n went to rest.. dear complained i nv help him dye.. ( i tired mah!!!) wanted to fell aslp den he came in disturb me man.. went to his house have dinner n now use com..

here's e pics!!!!

late update for 5th june fri

2009-06-06T07:22:00.005-07:00

erm... late for sch.. again..
at least made en effort to go.. but end up reach at 10 end at bout 12..
so abit sian.. but nvm.. cos going hol le.. plus last few wks pon sch many days..
once pon den always pon.. like addiction man.. cannot like tt liao next term..

den went back market thr buy lens.. (whole mth nv wear liao no $$ buy)
now tt i've bought, broke lo..
oh ya.. going to dye my hair gold also.. wanna go wild this hols..
and wanna make up n everything nice nice liao.. herh.. hehe

ok back to my story..

went home shower.. make up nice nice.. go meet dear den went town..
far east!!!!! long time nv go thr lo.. now got sale den just tjt can find smth budget..
ok got one top for $15 quite reasonable for its look..
den went walk walk... play pool at lucky plaza.. (cheap!)
walk ard den went bugis dear look for his clothes..
his parents came den went for late dinner den went home..
went kpt drink 1st b4 heading back home with dear..

bathe n put my skincare.. (ai mei liao hehe)
den he bathe den i put my skincare for him..(gd life right...)
den rest together and he went off bout 2am..
i was aslp liao as i took flu med n was drowsy.. felt gd to slp early man..
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today!!!

wake up late for dear house(promised him to go early hehe)
watched online movie den went to his condo gym(surprised right i go to gym hahax..)
den bathed n head to his aunty house for family dinner..
now at his house use com..
going out with a friend soon but dear will stay home tmr he working early..
but i know deep down he was upset cos when i asked him if i can go he like dun wanna ans den he say 'wan go just go dun ask me'
hai...
dear ah dear.. i know u no security when i go out with guy friends same as me when u go out with ur girl friends.. but most of my friends all guys u know right.. hai.. dun worry kays..
u will always be e only one..

hao ba signing off!!!

welcome to my newly created blog!

2009-06-03T23:43:00.000-07:00

hi everyone!

didnt quite like blogging actually but read a few ppl blog n tht y not just put my thts in here.. gd way to 'talk' when got no one to talk to.. hehe..

well well well.. so here goes..
whr shall i start.. hmm..

okie.. so.. recently, pon-teng from sch many days..
really sian man.. no proper lessons, long breaks, waste time.. maybe due to projects after projects. yupp! got many this term.. sian.. kinda affect my attendance n teacher talk to me n said if skip sch somemore... cant sit for exam!!! omg.. last yr le.. but just no motivation for this yr dunno y too

currently working in juron point still.. just a p.t job.. near home and can commit more days so kinda gd lah.. but still cant afford many things.. have to support my everyday expenses, buy toiletries, pay bills, and mum also asking money from me.... ARGH!!
so end up e most only can afford for a movie or 2 monthly...
quite sad with my life at times..

i really envy girls out thr n friends ard me tt have branded stuff (thou i not really fancy all those..) can go shop every wk and get their nice pretty clothes, do their hair nice nice.. go manicure n pedicure.. buy gd skincare n make up.. hAis... SaD maN.. really, smtimes just think of all these makes me feel depress..

i know my friends sure say tt girls should be pampered n doted, but i also hoping for tt day to come whr i dun hv to worry so much... yeah.. maybe someday but not in e near future..
well.. so sometimes friends ask me out go shop or ktv, u know wad'll br my ans bah..
and cos of my sItuation, some ppl feel tt when i go out with my close friends n certain things i cant afford ehich at ties they offer to help pay, they feel tt i make use of my friends money.. on e surface ppl who dunno me will think this way but.. it's a terrible feeling.. tt's y nowadays when ppl ask me out i cant afford, i turn them down.. yeah this is my life..

anyway, gotta let cha all know tt i've a guy his name is IVAN CHOO JUN HAO. we've been together for quite some time now.. my longest r/ship thou we had 2 breakups in betwwen.. yah.. sometimes from what he says, i feel tt i'm very demanding of him but some things some ppl cant change overnight.. so sometimes really hv some big fights.. but most of e times, he will apologise n surprise me with some things.. well.. thr's no perfection in this world right.. so for just hv to accept e way he is just e way i want him to accept me.. but he's quite sweet at times lah.. thou his life is also not very gd.. but he'll still try to cheer me up but deep down he's feeling like thr's no tmr in his life.. so.. yupp.. still loving him til now..

alrite.. shall stop here den..
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